Accepting What Is

As I sit here in the evening thinking about going to work tomorrow, I am worried, uncomfortable…a knot is forming in my stomach.  I’m wondering what surprises there will be to greet me and what challenges I will face.  Once I realize I am suffering, I immediately bring my practice of mindfulness to help me be the observer of what is going on.  I notice information coming from conditioned mind telling me something bad will happen and I won’t have what I need or know how to deal with it.  I notice these thoughts and I notice the worry that results.

As I look, I see two main themes.  First, conditioned mind has a lot to say about how I will perform in difficult circumstances.  I get the message that something bad will happen and I won’t know what to do.  As a result, I become worried and fearful.  When I become aware of these messages, I realize they are lies.  The truth is when bad things happen, I typically have all I need to do the right thing.  I have successfully dealt with hard situations well and I have resources to help me if I need them. I notice the judgment and lies and let them go.  One up on conditioned mind.  Woohoo! [Read more...]

PING PONG

In the busy, high-tech world I live in, I frequently find comfort and joy in the simple things.  I am grateful for technology.  I am grateful for the ease and enjoyment it brings to my life. However, I find relief when I take a break from all the gadgets, the Internet, and last but not least, television. I frequently unplug to allow room for silence, peace, and fun.  Recently, I took a break to spend time with my boys and have some fun.  Hence, the mission was born to acquire a ping pong table and play some table tennis.  First, we had to find the right table.  Okay.  I used the Internet for this part.  Once the most ideal table was found, the challenge was to get it home and put it together.  Both required patience, time, and some very low tech tools.

To my dismay, it took more than a day to find, purchase, transport, and assemble a ping pong table.  This seemed like an eternity to me.  I wanted some technology to throw this thing together so I could get to the good part. After all, I am used to finding most everything within seconds or shooting off ten e-mails in the span of fifteen minutes.  I immediately noticed urgency and pressure from the internal message that informed me I needed to do this project much more quickly.  I was hearing that I needed to finish so I could move on to playing and ultimately, getting to my to do list, which seems to always be getting longer rather than shorter.  I felt frustration at not being able to hurry.  The ping pong table would not go together any faster than the amount of time it took to screw all the screws and to tighten all the bolts.  A lesson in mindfulness all by itself. [Read more...]