My practice today was paying attention to body sensations. When an emotion arises for me, I have a physical response somewhere in my body. The most common place for a sensation to arise in my body is in my belly. When I was worried about something today, I felt burning in my stomach. And, when I was hungry, there were hunger pains in my stomach. What can be tricky is that the hunger pains can trigger worry or the worry can trigger hunger messages to my brain. I think this may be the reason I overeat sometimes or worry when there is nothing to worry about. When I’m not paying attention,you can can see how this can lead to quite a bit of unconscious behavior.
As I sit here in the evening thinking about going to work tomorrow, I am worried, uncomfortable…a knot is forming in my stomach. I’m wondering what surprises there will be to greet me and what challenges I will face. Once I realize I am suffering, I immediately bring my practice of mindfulness to help me be the observer of what is going on. I notice information coming from conditioned mind telling me something bad will happen and I won’t have what I need or know how to deal with it. I notice these thoughts and I notice the worry that results.
As I look, I see two main themes. First, conditioned mind has a lot to say about how I will perform in difficult circumstances. I get the message that something bad will happen and I won’t know what to do. As a result, I become worried and fearful. When I become aware of these messages, I realize they are lies. The truth is when bad things happen, I typically have all I need to do the right thing. I have successfully dealt with hard situations well and I have resources to help me if I need them. I notice the judgment and lies and let them go. One up on conditioned mind. Woohoo! [Read more...]